Bruises

Every week, I like to write about a quote, too. I have always loved reading and becoming inspired with various quotes. I also like to write them down on cute note pad paper for my boyfriend. I like to place the note in his sweater pockets, or somewhere where he can find it.

I am trying to not let myself be defined by my failures. I try to look at everything as something that needed to happen, in order for the better things to happen to me. Everything in life is only temporary. So when things aren’t working for us, we know that things can only get better.

Second Chance

*Warning* This blog post may be graphic for some readers.

About six months ago, my boyfriend was walking me to work. During that time it was our winter, so I had slipped and fallen on some ice on my right thigh. It hurt a bit, but I shook it off as I had ways to go. That whole morning, even getting ready for work felt like an off day for me. I wasn’t in the best mood. To be honest, I was feeling a bit discouraged that day.

We were almost at my work, when the light had turned green – our right away. And because I was angry that day, I was walking fast, faster than my boyfriend, and the next thing I knew I was lying on the ground. I had just gotten hit by a car that was turning left and he ran right into me. I was too busy thinking in my head to hear the car turning. My boyfriend tried his best to grab me and pull me out of the way. He felt me slip out of his arms.

I was crying, but I was strong enough to stand up afterwards. My mind has never let me remember the actual feeling of getting hit by the car. Which I am so thankful for. It really was scary. I just remember the feeling pain on my face and on my right thigh, (it didn’t help that I had previously fallen on it, 20 minutes prior) which is what had hit the car. I also remember being scared to touch my face and thigh in fears of feeling broken bones. After I had placed my hands over those body parts, I just felt the skin being swollen, nothing was broken, although I don’t have a Medical Degree, so I couldn’t be 100% certain.

My boyfriend took me over to a side walk where he took his coat off and used that as a cushion for me to sit down on. Then a familiar customer approached me asking me if I was okay, because I assumed not a lot of time has passed by, so she must have saw the accident. She was nice enough to call for help on my behalf. I told her that I worked at the coffee shop just up the street, where she was heading. She had spoke to the manager explaining the situation to my manager. My manager came out and saw me and gave me a hug.

I just remembered looking at the car and seeing his side mirror hanging off over his door handle.

Not much time after that, help showed up. My boyfriend and I both gave the police our statements. We then went to a hospital to get looked at to make sure that I was okay. After a doctor had examined me, she told me that I was lucky. Nothing was broken, just bruises and a bit of swelling.

It was in those moments that I truly was lucky. I could have suffered life-threatening injuries, or worst, I could have died, but the universe told me that my purpose and story wasn’t over. The universe knew that I had more to offer and bring into this world. It made me feel that I was needed and people needed me too.

I was also reminded me that I should be chasing my own dreams and passions and not be persuaded by what others want me to be. I pursued accounting thinking that I would love it, and be good at it. And also because people were encouraging telling me that I would be good at it, as well. But when I was studying it, I felt like my heart wasn’t it.

When they placed my hospital bracelet, I remembered the other times that I had to wear one in the past. Being in the hospital, made me feel like a patient in Grey’s Anatomy. It reminded when I was younger, I always wanted to be a nurse. I love helping people, I’m an optimistic and a caring person who has a lot of patience. To me, those are good qualities to have as a nurse. I know there are many other qualities to be a nurse, but those are the first ones that come to mind.

Later that night, because I had fallen and broke the concrete with my face. I ended up chipping one of my tooth, that I previously chipped two years ago, almost to the day. It was just not my day that day. I noticed because I was eating my dinner and a part of my filling came off. But I am thankful for all of the lessons it has taught me.

Although, to be honest I laid in bed for the next week or so. It wasn’t so much the aftermath of getting hit by the car that knocked me out, it was mostly the anxiety of having to go back outside. I also had a purple, dark blue bruise on my face, so that made me feel a bit self conscious. It was a very scary time for me. Fortunately, the bruise was a pale yellow greenish bruise by the time I returned to work a week later. It reminded that everything is only temporary, this pain won’t last forever.

I just felt a lot of life changing moments during the whole incident. I felt like beforehand, I wasn’t in the best place, emotionally; I often felt like I wasn’t me. I felt like I had outgrew a lot of things, like I was hungry and wanting new and better things for myself. I wanted a new job, a new place to live. The whole incident taught me to not settle for things that made me unhappy, instead choose happiness.

It made me realize that I am stronger than I even realized. I am capable of making changes in my life. This incident made me count my blessings, and to always be thankful no matter what happens to me. It was like this whole thing was a teaching moment. It reinforced everything that I preach in my blog, to be thankful, to never settle, to always believe in yourself and to overcome your anxieties and fears. I can really go and do anything I want to in my life.

It was also a reminder to always live your life like it is your last day. I know that made sound like a cliche, but it’s so true. You should always fill your days doing something you love. Always tell your friends and family how much they mean to you. No one knows when their time is going to run out. Don’t let the bad times bring you down, you can always stand up, no matter how hard the universe may bring you down. Use your troubles as stepping stones for something better. Learn to count your blessings, not your burdens.

Everything is Only Temporary

Everything in life is only temporary. Forever is non-existent. Experiencing life and knowing that it is temporary is both a blessing and a curse.

When I was working a closing shift last night I accidentally dropped my citrine (my favourite gemstone) and it shattered into a million pieces – well maybe a million is a slight exaggeration. My best friend bought me that and it was shaped of a heart. Citrine is a yellow gemstone – my favourite colour. It was poetic that it shattered when it fell on the floor. My friend and I no longer talk anymore and our friendship died a few months ago. It’s almost like a part of me died with it.

Upon hearing all of the broken pieces hit the floor my immediate reaction was to pick up all of the pieces. But since we just turned the lights off that was merely impossible. When my friendship collapsed I wanted to pick up the pieces and tried my best to repair it. But I couldn’t.

Everything that breaks cannot be repaired to the way it was before it shattered. Somethings are best left broken. It is useless to water dead plants that cannot be saved.

It’s hard to accept that nothing lasts forever but when you do, your life will change. You will appreciate whatever emotion your feeling, you appreciate the people who are apart of your life. They are all part of your story. They helped shaped you into the person you are now.

The curse of knowing that everything is temporary is that all of the good moments and memories you share with people will not last forever. No matter how hard you try to make it last forever. It won’t. But it should motivate you to make awesome memories with them whilst they are still part of your life and to not take anything or anyone for granted because you never know when something apart of you will come to an end.

It is a blessing because just like all of the enjoyable times are short lived so are our worst feelings and hardships. They won’t last forever either. It gives us hope to never let the bad times bring us down. Your hardships allow you to grow when you accept and learn throughout your difficult times.

Living life with less is best because nothing is permanent and neither are your belongings since you will lose and break many of your prized processions throughout your life. So enjoy everything because it won’t last forever.

If everything lasted forever you wouldn’t appreciate it as much because it would always be there and you wouldn’t be able to grow from your losses.

Seize every moment life offers you. Never allow yourself to feel down because something good will happen right around the bend.

“The only things you can take with you when you leave this world are the things you’ve packed in your heart.” -Susan Gale

“Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.” -Marilyn Monroe

“Nothing lasts forever, so live it up, drink it down, laugh it off, avoid the drama, take chances, and never have regrets because at one point everything you did was exactly what you wanted.” -Marilyn Monroe