Day 74

This lesson is from Monday March 15th.

Something that I have learned over the years is that it is important to express gratitude as much as you possibly can. Learning to be grateful is such a blessing. I love starting and ending my days with what I am thankful for. There may be days when we don’t have much to be thankful for, but we actually do.

It’s important to find the silver lining in a lot of different situations. Many of you may not have known this but I was hit by a car almost a year and a half ago. I am so thankful that nothing bad happened to me. I only suffered a few bruises on me. I have no long term deficits. I am so thankful for that. I realize that my life could have been so different if something bad had happened to me.

“Be thankful for what you have; you’ll end up having more. If you concentrate on what you don’t have, you’ll never have enough.”

-Oprah Winfrey

Oprah Winfrey also recommends that we have a gratitude journal, where we spend some time throughout the week writing down things we are thankful for.

Today, I will try to spend time thinking or even writing the things that I am grateful for. It is important for me to express gratitude because it improves my self esteem, makes me happier and overall more healthier. I don’t have to spend a great big deal of time, but as long as I spend some time thinking about what I am thankful. I will try my best to make it a habit.

Heart Broken

I am so sorry for my absence on my blog. Last week, my Dad had sent me a message, telling me that my Grandpa (his Dad) has died. He has been in the hospital a few days before he had passed away. It was not Covid related.

He had a bad heart, but that never stopped him from loving everyone. Everyone was his best friend. He was my best friend my whole life. I feel really sad that he is no longer on earth with me. But I know that he will be looking down on me.

I have been trying to not let the sadness bring me down. But some days it is harder than others. My Papa has been having a hard year with his heart. And that he was sad that not too many people have been able to visit him. Where I live, in order to protect the elderly members a lot of the retirement homes can no longer have any visitors, and the residents that lived there, weren’t allowed to leave the retirement home. The Grandpa I knew was he was always moving and liked to keep myself busy. So for him not to be able to interact with everyone, was challenging on him.

My Dad had told me that it wasn’t looking too good for him. I was so sad, because I just kept on hoping that he would get better, so he could go back home. Because he was only allowed to be visited by his children, and grandchildren weren’t allowed to see him. We were still fortunate enough to have said our goodbyes via FaceTime with one of my uncles. I haven’t seen him in a year because of the Covid protocols. I was blessed to have visited my Grandparents the weekend before everything closed. During that visit I didn’t want to leave, because I had a feeling that it might have been the last time seeing him. I had a feeling because I knew it was only a matter of time before all of the retirement homes get placed under lockdown.

It’s been a difficult month, with trying to accept the loss of my Grandpa. It’s been challenging to accept that he is gone. The world feels so different without him here on Earth. He was a loving man. I just wished I got to make more memories with him. We missed out on a lot of memories during his final year, birthdays, BBQ’s, Christmas, and many visits. He lived a long, beautiful life. He got to be there for his family, and see his Grandchildren grow up. He even got to meet his Great Grandchildren. Not everyone gets that blessing. He was three months away for his 91st birthday.

Luckily we were able to have a funeral for him to honour the great man that he was. I feel so glad to have had you in my life for as long as I had. I’m almost 27, not too many of my friends have their Grandparents at that age, most of the people I knew from school had to deal with this during elementary days. I can’t even imagine to feel that burden.

Two weeks ago, my best friend, and one of my Gemini twins became my Guardian Angel.

“How lucky am I to have something that makes saying goodbye to so hard?”-A.A. Minnie, Winnie the Pooh

I feel so fortunate that we were able to have so many years together, filled with so many wonderful memories. You were the best Grandpa anyone could have asked for.

I always get told that I look so much like you, and I love that I can see a resemblance of you in myself.

I thought that sitting on your lap was always the best seat in the house. It made me feel happy and safe being wrapped around your arms. We would tell each other stories, and we would make each other laugh all the time.

I remember that time you bought all of my back to school supplies, as well as my sister’s supplies, too. I was going to start grade one, and my sister was going to start the fourth grade. I wanted to have all of the fancy supplies that my sister was getting, like all of those cool binders, rulers, calculators, highlighters, pencil crayons, and so many other supplies that I did not need for the first grade. But I wanted to be just like my sister! But having all of these supplies made me want to do well in school. You inspired me to reach my goals. And I am still making sure that I reach my goals now.

I remember whenever I got sick, you would babysit me while my parents were at work. And other times, you would drive yourself and Grandma to our place, to drop off homemade soup. Grandma would make the best chicken noodle soup, and turkey soup. She would make us whatever she had on hand at the time. I always felt so blessed.

I remember the one time I was at your cottage, and I had lost my first tooth, since you told me that eating some celery would help it come out. Your idea totally worked! Although after I lost my tooth, I got all worried, because I didn’t think that the Tooth Fairy would be able to find me so far away from home. You had helped me calm down, when you explained that the Tooth Fairy will still be able to find me. She did indeed.

I remember when we were about to head out for the cottage, but Great Auntie (his sister-in-law) had called Grandma. Those two loved to talked to each other. While we waited for their conversation to end, you taught me how to tie my shoes. It made me so happy! I remember getting to tell Grandma all about it once she got off of the phone.

I always remember going to your house a lot of the time, because you and Grandma would have invited us over for roast beef, mashed potatoes (which are my favourite) carrots, and corn. And we would always end the night with us dancing together. You would place my feet on top of yours, and we would hold hands while we swayed across the floor in the foyer. We would always Dance it Out!

I was always at your house so much, it was basically a second home away from home. From the countless sleepovers, to our weekly dinners, I was always visiting you! We also watched Wheel of Fortune, Jeopardy! and whatever sport game was on afterwards, whether it was football, or your favourite the New York Rangers, we always had a fun time.

I remember that one sleepover at your house, during the Easter long weekend. We had our family dinner on the Saturday night, and then I spent the night with my auntie, my uncle, and my two cousins after everyone else had left. The three of us woke up to an Easter Scavenger Hunt for chocolate eggs the next morning. You were helping me the most try to find the eggs! And all of those other weekend sleepovers at my auntie and uncle’s house. Especially since they lived so far away from us, so the road trips were also fun, too! Those were the best.

We also had so many sleepovers with my sister, which were always so much fun. Especially when it was during the winter time, you would drive us around the neighbourhood and look at all of the Christmas lights.

I loved how I was fortunate enough to celebrate our birthdays together since our birthdays were ten days apart. It was always a wonderful celebration. Our names were both written on the cake for a lot of our birthdays. That always made me smile.

Another dear memory of mine that I have of you, is that when I was in the hospital in the fifth grade, you and Grandma came to the hospital and visited me every day! I am always thankful for your company. And most days you came over with presents, to help me feel more comfortable.

Because of all of the cups of tea we have shared together, I have become obsessed with tea. And now I will always think of you whenever I have a cup of tea. You always made the best cup of tea ever! You showed me a love for puzzles like Sudoku, and word searches, bowling, and dressing up.

I will always remember you by looking so dapper. You always had your hair combed really nicely. You even kept a comb in your back pocket. You would even wear a suit and a jacket, despite us just having brunch together at a restaurant. I remember all of my uncles telling you that you didn’t have to wear a suit for a brunch. You would reply with that you wanted to. The only time I really saw you dress casually was when I saw you on Fridays for our weekly dinners, and whenever we went to the beach

Of course, I can go on and on with even more of the memories we have shared together, because you truly have given me a lifetime of memories, that I will cherish forever.

You passed down so much of your wisdom, and compassion onto me. You have taught me valuable lessons throughout my life. You showed me the importance of helping out others, and being kind to others. You taught me what it means to truly love someone, and how to be family-oriented.

Thank you for telling me all of these stories about my great aunties, and uncles, and great grandparents, and the stories about you and Grandma, and how you two met. I have always admired your love story with Grandma, it’s like a fairy tale. They were married for 68 years, and have been together for almost 71 years. Growing up I had wished that I would have an amazing love story like you two. And lucky for me, I met my Prince Charming on the day of your wedding anniversary. I took that as a sign from the universe!

Growing up you were always the first person I told good news to. You always believed in me. You have helped shape me into who I am as a person. You have inspired me, and strengthened me over the years.

Thank you for all that you have done for me, and for our family. You taught me that it is important to make compromises for our family. I am grateful that you took us to see my Great Auntie. We always played cards, and other games with my Great Auntie. She always would make us her delicious fudge. We visited her a lot with my Grandparents because she was lonely since her husband passed away not too long ago. She was always such a nice lady. She’s another Gemini that I hold dear to my heart!

I am going to miss you so much. But I know that as long as I keep you in my heart, you are never really gone. You will forever be a part of us. I know that I can be sad all I want to be, but I can also be happy for you that you can see all of your siblings, and all of the other amazing people that have passed on before you. Please tell Great Auntie, that I say hello, and that I miss her, too. I hope you are enjoying her homemade fudge and Shortbread cookies. I also hope that you are playing Jeopardy! with Alex Trebek.

I had a 30 second dance party on the night you had passed because that is how we finish! I love you more than words would be able to explain my love for you. Please continue to send me your support, and your love for me. And be sure to send me any pieces of advice and guidance whenever you may think I need any. You will be missed dearly. I love you with all of my heart. Until we meet again… xoxo

Since you always inspired me to chase after my dreams, and I will be honouring you by writing a book about you, and all of the memories we have shared. I will keep everyone posted with the writing. I will love to start getting back into writing again. Writing has always made me so happy.

I feel like this is what you have been sending me, that you would want me to continue to live my life, and to reach my goals. You would want me to be happy, and to remember all of the times we have shared.

Thank you for everything that you have ever done for me. It means so much!

For my followers, thank you so much for your love and patience during this time. I appreciate all of the likes and support that you have been giving me. It truly means the world to me.

Empowered Women

Since it’s International Women’s Day, I thought I would dedicate my Weekly Quote to us.

I wish that we live in a world that is more loving. There is always so much hate in the news, and in the world. We should learn to boost people, instead of expressing hatred, or anything else that is negative. Instead we should focus on empowering others. We should offer help to others. We have the power to empower, and inspire others.

I love to be inspired from other women in history, a few that come to mind are Laura Secord, and Harriet Tubman. I love reading about inspirational stories of all around the world, such as Malala Yousafzai, and how she took a bullet for women’s education. I admire hearing and following amazing stories like that.

Let’s continue to bless and love other people.

Day 64

On Friday, it felt like my world shattered. It really reminded me that; “Life turns on a dime.” -Stephen King,

“Life turns on a dime. Sometimes towards us, but more often it spins away, flirting and flashing as it goes: so long, honey, it was good while it lasted, wasn’t it?”

-Stephen King, 11/22/63

I received a message from my Dad that my Grandpa (his Dad) was rushed to the hospital since he has the pneumonia. I was crying because I didn’t want anything bad to happen to him. Out of all of my Grandparents, he was the one I was closest with. I couldn’t even imagine what it would be like to live in a world that he doesn’t exist anymore.

I thought back to all of the memories we have shared. And now I just pray and hope that he can get better. Where he lives he isn’t allowed to have any visitors or leave to visit others. So I haven’t seen him in a year, which is obviously the longest I have ever gone without seeing him. So I would call every little while to keep him company. I just would love to talk to him a couple more times.

At the same time, I feel fortunate enough to have had my Grandpa in my life this long. I am almost 27 years old, that makes me feel really lucky.

Today, I will soak in and relish all of the good memories I have. You never know when things in your life can change. Enjoy the goodness in your life. Use them as a reflection for when things go in life. Surround yourself with people who you love, and love you. They are what you need to overcome anything bad. Remember to always live your life to the fullest. Enjoy the company, and enjoy the ride.

March Fourth

I feel bad, because I really tried to post this on Thursday…

But the message can still be useful. I loved this message. Whatever we may be going through in life, we have the strength to overcome any obstacle life throws at us. All we got to do is trust the universe’s plans for us. Whatever struggle we go, or have gone through, it is helping us shape us into the person we are destined to become. Even if whatever struggles we have gone through, it has helped shape us and helped us figure out what we want in life.

We must learn that in order to live our lives, the only we can is by moving forward. Life isn’t meant to be lived going backwards, but instead we must continue to march forth.

Space For Yourself

Another way I love starting the week is with a quote. I love quotes. And sometimes we just need an extra boost of confidence, and motivation.

It’s okay if it seems like nothing in your life is going your way. That happens, but what is most important is that you don’t give up on yourself, or your goals. It might not seem like you will accomplish them, but amazing things take time. And once your goals are accomplished you will have a big smile, and you would be proud of yourself. But if you don’t accomplish your goals you may never know that feeling. My advice is to keep going to accomplish all that you would like to.

Day 42

I got to babysit my niece for an extra day last week. She normally sees her grandparents but they were busy that day, so I got to watch her. The day before I babysat, I was thinking of making this cute art and craft for my sister and her boyfriend as a Valentine’s Day present. My niece is almost 2 years old, so I had a few craft ideas that she could do.

I decided that I can try to trace her hands to make a heart, and then I traced her feet to make another heart. I put her show on, and I put her in her chair. It turned out nice, despite that I didn’t get it into heart shapes. I let her give it to my sister. My sister thought that was super cute, she loved it!

Something that Gretchen Rubin reminded me to do was, “Don’t let perfection be the enemy of the good” in her book, The Happiness Project. It means that you can’t let yourselves get so caught up with perfection, that everything around you loses its beauty. You just got to remind yourself that you did your best.

I like to think that her craft was beautifully done. But there are other times where I have to remind myself that it’s okay for things to be messy, like how she loves to keep her toys all sprawled throughout the living room. Or how I sometimes get bothered that her pants are crocked. It’s small things like this. I am trying hard to look pass this. I’m not a mom, so it may or may not take me longer to get over this. I know there might be some people saying that I will miss the mess when she is older.

Today, I am reminded that I must look pass the imperfections, and see that the world can be a beautiful place. I will accept the fact that the world doesn’t have to be perfect to be beautiful. Don’t let yourself to miss out on things because you would rather see the imperfections, rather than the beauty of the imperfections.

February 1st

I cannot believe how fast January flew by. Now, it is time to make new goals. It’s a bonus fresh start with the month starting on a Monday – new week, and a new month. It’s a powerful day, so we should not let the day go to waste.

Think about what you wish to accomplish, and go for it! Fill your day doing the things you love; our time is limited, and we never know when it might be our last day. You should always make time to work on your goals, as well.

These are amazing goals that we should work on throughout the month.

Spend some time thinking about what you would like to accomplish, and begin to plant the seeds for your goals, and dreams. What you plant now, will harvest by spring time.

Never Quit

I love when a new month begins on a Monday! It’s one of my favourite things, because it is like a double fresh start – a new month, and a new week. I found the perfect quote for my Weekly Quote.

I feel like if I didn’t have to go through a lot of stresses last month, I feel like I could have used more time to accomplish my goals. But regardless of what happened last month, I am only moving forward this time. There is no time for me to sulk about the past. It’s time to move forward, and continue to work hard on what I wish to achieve for myself. I cannot wait to accomplish my goals this month, and for this week as well.

I hope everyone is granted with the extra motivation to get out there and accomplish all that you wish to do.

Courage

I hope everyone is having a good week, my week could definitely be a bit better.

I didn’t draw this, but I came across this photo on Facebook. I love Oprah Winfrey and quotes.

But with this whole pandemic going on, I have been doing some soul searching and wanting to try new things. One of my dreams is to write a book, and become a published author. I have been working hard on brainstorming ideas, and manifesting my dream to the universe.

I believe that everyone has a goal inside of them. All you need is to dig deep within yourself, and let the universe know what you would like for yourself.