We Run From Pain

“Something terrible happens, we blame ourselves, and we don’t want to feel it, so we run. We run from joy, too because we think we don’t deserve happiness. But it’s a package deal. There is no joy without pain.”

-Meredith Grey, Grey’s Anatomy

For some of you who are new my blog, one of my favourite shows is Grey’s Anatomy. I can binge watch that show for days on end. In fact, I have countless times.

As of lately I have been feeling sad. In fact, I’ve been mostly sad these days. I’ve been trying my best to cheer myself up.

This was a quote that Meredith says to Teddy about how Teddy is always running from her pain. And that when happy things happen to her, she feels like she doesn’t deserve it. Which I can 100% relate to. This year has been unbearable and challenging at times. I feel like I have been running away from my problems. But that is a never ending race. We will never be able to run away from our problems. They will keep on reappearing in our lives until we learn we are needed to learn in the first place. The problem with feelings is they demand to be felt.

I keep on reminding myself that there will come a time that the pain I had to encounter is going to transfer into something so beautiful and joyous. We just got to keep on believing in ourselves and we’ll see it for ourselves. Our battles and problems will turn us into warriors, we just can’t let them ruin us, or bring us down. If we let our situations belittle us, may we continue to raise to the occasion. Like my Grandpa always said; “Time waits for no one.”.

We think we don’t deserve happiness or joy, but we actually do deserve it. We work so hard, and feel like there isn’t time to truly experience bliss. We are too busy to let these positive emotions in. But we should really be setting aside time for happiness.

When we feel pain, just know that joy is soon to follow. We just have to trust the universe.

Rolled My Ankle

Hey everyone!

Unfortunately, when I was at the park with my mom, sister and my niece, I was rolled my ankle. So now I am officially on bed rest and I have to rest up until I heal fully. Since I never rolled my ankle before, it is a bit painful. But I have had a skin graft from a third degree, and have been hit by a car, I think it’s safe to say I can handle a bit of pain.

I guess now, I would have to just roll with it, aha! :p

Emotion -Eckhart Tolle

I really enjoy how insightful Eckhart Tolle’s book is. I enjoy reading it. Mindfulness is something I am practicing. I don’t want to have to worry about the past that is already over, and I don’t want to be anxious about my future because it isn’t here yet. The now is where I want to be.

“One of the main tasks of the mind is to fight or remove the emotional pain, which is one of the reasons for its incessant activity, but all it can ever achieve is to cover it up temporarily. In fact, the harder the mind struggles to get rid of the pain, the greater the pain.”

-Eckhart Tolle, Power of Now, page 28

When I was reading this, I related to it instantly. I remember trying to think of ways to remove the pain of something I was either thinking or feeling. It really was like the more I tried to forget about the pain, it felt like the pain was growing bigger. What I had to do, was just lay there and not concrete on the pain, but allow the pain to teach me what I needed to learn. Everything that you go through, teaches you what you are meant to know. The universe is always right. Learn to trust it.