Day 13

I have always found that it is best, to get organized for the next day, instead of having to worry about it in the morning. When I was a kid, I liked to get up early for school, so I can read a book after eating breakfast. The night before I packed all of my notebooks, and text books in my backpack for school the next day. I also liked to plan my outfit for tomorrow. I like having peaceful mornings, because I found by doing these extra steps I am able to start the day off right.

Today, before going to bed, I will do something that will save me time in the morning, that way I can be more organized starting out my day.

Day Seven

Let’s learn to have gratitude for our health. Sure, there are days that we may not be in perfect health, but we still have working parts.

Write about why you are grateful for your health, and if you aren’t satisfied with your health, gradually work on improving it. Perhaps you can start adding 10 or even 15 minutes a day working out, anything that allows you to move your body will do wonders. Start gradually and you will be more confident to do more in the upcoming days.

Every day brings new opportunities, so never be afraid to seize those experiences. But also, it is wise to make healthy issues too, like drinking some water, eating your fruit and vegetables — your mom wasn’t wrong.

Even if you are having a bad day, don’t forgot to find your gratitude and always be thankful no matter what kind of day you may have endured. Never go to bed without having a grateful heart.

I am grateful for my health because although I am prone to always getting sick, I am working towards bettering myself and my health by practicing some yoga, mediation, and trying to eat healthier.

Don’t Dwell In Sadness

I have a tendency of allowing myself to dwell sadness. I even let the smallest things bother me. I give my negative thoughts too much power.I know that some of thoughts aren’t true but I still think of them anyway. I think that I’m not good enough, that I’m not lovable and that I underestimate my value from time to time.

I’ve always done this for as long as I could remember.

It is such a difficult habit to break. This is why I turn to happiness because I got tired of wallowing in my negativity and sadness. It sometimes feels like when sadness creeps in I allow it to stay. Even though I try to not to.

When sadness crept into my life in March I started making changes in my life. I began exercising, eating healthy and drinking lots of water sometimes mixing it with either cucumbers or lemons. I also kept up with writing in my journal before I went to bed.

I used to start my day with stretches, eating a healthy breakfast, going for a run, climbing stairs followed by a cool down and a shower.

I made a lot of healthy changes to let go of my sadness.

When my friendship with one of my closest friends was collapsing, it made me feel really sad. It made me think me that I wasn’t good enough. I knew I wasn’t because I did a lot of things that I regret throughout our friendship. I would try to convince myself that those things doesn’t make me a bad person.

A quote that I heard from someone from one of my support groups was that; “All of us has done bad things but we only did them because we had good intentions behind our actions.”

Before I started dating my boyfriend I would talk to him about stuff like this. I also went to support groups to release my sadness. I haven’t been to one in a long time. I used to read my daily readings from One Day At A Time in Al-Anon (Al-Anon is meetings where friends or relatives of the alcoholic can go and seek support from others, guest speakers and from literature) as well as The Language of Letting Go. I really want to start this again.

I felt a lot of the symptoms that a lot of the people experienced in those meetings – guilt, sadness, indecisiveness and many other things.

I have found that these books have been helpful. I enjoy reading them after breakfast. It helps me start the day on the right foot.

Lately I’ve been feeling sad partly because of my uncertainty. I don’t mean uncertainty with my boyfriend or any of my other relationships. I mean career wise. I get nervous about what I should be doing and ponder if it is right for me. I’m a worrier. I doubt myself.

I allowed myself to stay trapped with sadness and not letting happiness rule my day.

I need to believe in myself and trust that everything is under control and that everything happens for a reason even if I may not see now. Nothing bad will happen to me because whatever happens is supposed to happen. This is something that I think of when I worry too much.

I didn’t plan on writing this much, it kind of made me feel like I babbled. But anyway, I am trying to not let my sadness ruin the happiness that I am blessed to have in my life – my boyfriend, family, friends, my job and many more.

I need to continue on making healthy changes for myself. I have written my resolutions for this month that will help me embrace happiness.

Today, I will not allow myself to drown in sadness instead I will let happiness overshadow the darkness. I will try my best to make positive changes in my life. Whenever I am sad I will talk to someone about it or if I am not ready to talk about it, I write it down in a journal until I wish to talk to someone about it. I find it helpful but at the beginning it was a bit scaring.

I won’t let the sorrows of yesterdays ruin my happiness of my tomorrows.

“God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.”

Reaching Goals

Last night before I went to bed I wrote a list of things that I wanted to accomplish. I woke up within the first few minutes of my alarm which is an accomplishment because I usually pressed snooze for about an hour some days.

I woke up, did my stretches then did a Sudoku puzzle, ate breakfast and drank my tea. I washed the dishes and then I went for a shower. Tidied up my room and got rid of a few things in my desk drawer.

I feel quite proud of myself that I was able to accomplish a lot of things that I wanted to complete.

Today, I will write down my goals and work hard to complete them.