Avril Lavigne – Freak Out

Whenever things go wrong, it’s okay. Everything will get better.

“Freak out. Let it go!”

Letting Go

Last week I was sick so I forgot that I didn’t post anything for Buddy Wakefield Wednesday. I apologize for not remembering so here are two posts to make up for it.

“This is an apology letter to the both of us for how long it took me to let things go.”

I love this quote! It describes a time of my sadness. There were many times where I struggled to let go of a dying friendship and to accept that things were never able to go back to the way they were. It took me a long time to accept this fact but after accepting that truth, it is okay that my friendship ended. It was a difficult to accept and move on. But after many months I was able to move on with my head held high. A lot of things went wrong and I am sorry that things ended for the way they did.

There are times where I think of you and wonder if you are okay. But I am okay that we are no longer friends anymore. It taught me a lot of things that I needed to learn like acceptance of others and that you can’t mold someone into someone that they are not.

It was for the best. I realized that friendship happened for a reason and I am forever grateful for that friendship. If it wasn’t for that friendship I wouldn’t have met my boyfriend and I adore him to pieces. ❤

Working Together

Today I was fortunate enough to hang out with my former coworker. Then our best friend, Butterfly showed up and we hung out with him for a bit. That was a lot of fun.

The purpose of our hangout was for me to help my former coworker with his homework. He was grateful that I agreed to help him. He was nice to buy me my chocolate chip muffin, a pumpkin spiced latte and then a hot chocolate. It was delicious. I am so happy that he bought me these delicious snack and beverage.

It was a bit stressful but we have to do one thing at a time and not stress about it too much. Just breathe…

Today, I will not stress bring me down and I will take it one thing at a time.

Make Your Life An Adventure

“Your life’s journey is no longer an adventure, just an obsessive need to arrive, to attain, to “make it.” You no longer see or smell the flowers by the wayside either, nor are you aware of the beauty and the miracle of life that unfolds all around you when you are present in the Now.”

-Eckhart Tolle

I have been living in the past, I won’t lie. I’ve been dwelling if I made the right choices career wise whether or not I am doing the right thing. Then I’ve been worrying about my future. Right now I need to focus on what I have and make the best of it. I should let go and believe that I am on the right track and that whatever happens is meant to happen.

Don’t Take It Personally!

I was quite upset today when someone told that I’m not doing a good job at work. As offending as what they said, I tried my best to not to take that personally.

I don’t like when someone says something mean to me because I have a fragile self-esteem at times which results in me thinking that I’m not good enough.

It is something that I am working on. I try not to let other people’s unnecessary negative thoughts bring me down. What helps me from not taking it personal is that everyone has their opinions but theirs doesn’t make it right and that I shouldn’t attach myself to their opinion.

Today I will not allow myself to take things personally especially things I know that aren’t true. I don’t have to tie myself to people’s opinions. Let it all go.

Let It All Go

“Let it all go from the get go
let go, let God let it go
leave it alone, let it pass
let it be,c’est la vie, whats done is done
hang up on it
land the plane, don’t get on that train
the bus has already left
this too, shall pass

shake it off, cut your losses
bust loose, break free,
its water under the bridge
what comes around, goes around
go around, get over it, get it together
get a grip, get moving, keep moving
move on, move forward, forward march
stop, drop it, squash it, release
relax.

spilled water cannot be poured back.
don’t look back. enough is enough. quit dwelling.
forget it, forgive it, right now, as is.
nothing is against us.

our craving for annihilation will be laid to rest,
with the apocalyptic resentment and the compounding stress.
yes, said the answer.
yes, said the breath.
the consequences are immediate.
so when you breathe,
you might try freeing both lungs up.”

-Buddy Wakefield, Free Air

I absolutely love this. It reminds me to let it all go. Never attach yourself to your past. Embrace the now. “Nothing is against us.” Just breathe. It motivates me to stay mindful and in the moment.

One Thing – Storage Organizers

When I was “organizing” these stuff I put a lot of stuff there because I wasn’t able to let those things go even though I never knew that I would probably never use them again.

I’m kind of like that with people as well. It’s something that I am working on. But at times it can be difficult.

Worrying – Eckhart Tolle

“Worrying pretends to be necessary but serves no useful purpose.”

-Eckhart Tolle

This is something that I stumbled upon when I was reading the other night. It is something that I need to work on. I used to worry about a lot of things. But as of lately I have learned to accept what I can change and change what I can’t accept. If I can’t change something, then I don’t fret instead I let go and move on with something that is relevant in my life.

A Broken Mug

I was at my boyfriend’s house and we always have tea. I always have my tea in the same mug. My boyfriend would even wash it for me when it was dirty. Well, mind you it wasn’t my mug, it was his mother’s but I used it because it was yellow.

This morning boyfriend walked downstairs to make us a cup of tea. I stayed in his room and then about five minutes later he walks into his room holding something in his hands.

“I have some bad news…” my boyfriend began but then later got interrupted by me asking what. I finally figured it out before he could finish his thought.

“YOU BROKE MY MUG?!” “I’m sorry, I’ll buy you and my ma a new mug.”

I marched into the kitchen to find a million of pieces shattered on the floor. It felt like my heart broke too.

Whilst he was cleaning it I had pick up a few pieces of what was left of the mug so I can add it to my Memory Box.

This taught me a lot of things that I’m working on. It shows me that I need to continue working on these things. I learnt how to let things go, forgive someone of their wrongdoings and to appreciate the small things.