A Year in My Life

I wish I could say that this past year has been easy, but truthfully it has been the most extricating, difficult year that I had went through in a very long time. I have experience the loss of many things and people. My world fell apart like a supernova. It all began when my Grandpa passed away last March. His passing broke me, I remember spending days curled up in my bed, crying, and being sad for days on end. I have been replaying a lot of our memories in my head. I have a lot of pictures that I look at when I miss him.

He truly was an amazing person. Everyone loved him and he was everyone’s best friend. He is so missed, but he is forever in my heart. I think about him all of the time.

I had tried taking on a retail job. I have normally just done jobs in the food industry, so it was difficult in the beginning. After months, I have been managing just fine. I have worked a few retail jobs before, so I have been using the skills to my new job. I have actually met some really nice people there. It was a hard adjustment, but now I feel like I can get in the swing of things.

And then unfortunately I experienced another loss when my aunt passed away a few months ago. I miss her so much. I feel bad because I haven’t had many chances to see her recently since the whole covid situation. She passed away so unexpectedly. I always wished I was able to spend more time with her before she passed away. But unfortunately that is life. We all have one last day with everyone, we just never know when that might happen. That is why it is important to stay in touch with the people that matter the most. It should also reinforce us to be kind to each other, since we don’t know what our last words may be to someone.

And another loss that I faced last year, was when my boyfriend and I broke up. We still talk from time to time, we don’t hate each other. We are able to be civil about it.

So this explains why I haven’t been that active in the blog universe.

Although the one good thing about last year is that I was able to reconnect with one of my friends from many years ago. I am happy that the universe decided to bring someone that can bring joy in my life despite taking away people. That is the universe’s way of taking the good with the bad.

After all of the losses I had suffered last year, I truly hope that 2022 is the year for me. Things aren’t exactly perfect right now. But I pray for guidance, and for the strength to not allow myself to stay broken. I will try to rebuild myself so I can come back stronger than ever. My life has been so messy and complicated right now, but what matters is how I rebuild myself after these losses. I have big goals for myself. I am excited for all of the things I have planned to do this year. Of course, I would be documenting my goals and dreams on my blog. I do wish to blog more again.

I truly miss all of you. I hope everyone has been doing well. I appreciate any words of feedback, love and prayers. I will try to get back to everyone who comments. Thank you again for understanding.

Thankful Thursdays #22

If you’re celebrating Thanksgiving this weekend, what a perfect way to spend time truly thinking about you’re grateful for.

Every week I round up and think about what I am thankful for. I encourage everyone to do this activity.

Here is my list.

  1. I’m thankful for catching up with a friend I haven’t spoken to in a little while. I’m glad he is doing well.
  2. My boyfriend brought me my container from my sister’s house. I am currently going through at the moment. I’ve been trying to go through my things. It is a freeing and exciting project. Not only is it allowing me to find a home for these items, but it is also a great feeling knowing that I am helping others by donating things I no longer use or need anymore.
  3. My boyfriend and I did some decorating around our room. We hung up my lights. It is over my vision board. I think it is really pretty. I shared a photo below. It says, “Easy Does It”, it reminds when I have a lot going on, I remind myself to take things slowly, even if it is just one thing at a time.
  4. I was able to go out for more walks this week, although that may be why my back is a bit sore, but slowly getting better.
  5. I got to watch two football games yesterday, which was fun, although those games were a blow out, but still entertaining. When I watched the Salvation Army Red Kettle Campaign Performance during the halftime show between the Dallas and Washington football, I came across a new singer, Kane Brown. The Salvation Army accepts donations to help out those less fortunate. I really enjoyed his music performance.

Glad You Came – The Wanted

Tom Parker of the band, The Wanted, has disclosed that he has been diagnosed with a terminal brain tumour. I am absolutely devastated for him and his family. I love The Wanted. For those who may not know, but they are a British-Irish boy band.

I feel really sad for Tom Parker and his family since he is only 32 years old. His wife is pregnant with their second child.

I remember that my best friend and I used to listen to The Wanted and have a mini dance party listening to them. It was a lot of fun. But to summarize things, life got complicated and we ended up going in different directions without one another. We do on the occasion still keep in touch. Although not as much as we used to, and that’s okay. I still feel very blessed to be friends with this amazing person. We live in different cities, and things are different now, but I hope that our paths can cross again, soon. May this song help everyone realize that life is too short, to be anything but happy. I hope this song encourages us to take chances, like go to talk to that friend you have been meaning to message, quit that job, and try something new. Life is too short to be ordinary, go out there, and be extraordinary!

I will always love this song. I feel for Tom Parker and his family. I’ll keep him my thoughts and hope that he is strong enough to accomplish all that he wishes to. This song will remind me to not take life so seriously, but to enjoy everything and everyone. Never take anything or anyone for granted, because you never know when you will see someone again. All we ever have is this present moment. Another thing that this song teaches me is that everyone can enter your life, and can only stay there for a season. And when they leave, your universe is never the same again. Learn to enjoy the little things in life.

“The sun goes down
The stars come out
And all that counts
Is here and now
My universe will never be the same
I’m glad you came”

-The Wanted, I’m Glad You Came

Day 10 of 192

I love doing this challenge. I find it really freeing and it’s allowing me to ease in to the whole decluttering mission at a steady pace. I have tried to declutter so many times before, but I felt like I was getting stuck and couldn’t overcome the emotional attachment of things, like clothes. I still have a ton of clothes from years ago, so some of these clothes are too hard to let go.

So that’s where I came up with this whole idea of one item a day, which has been helping me. Like a lot. Because I can discard things slowly and really appreciate the transformation.

Like this shirt was a bit of a challenge to get rid of because I remember wearing it the first time I hung out with one of my friends. What made it difficult was that we don’t really hang out or talk much, we live in different cities now.

Even though this shirt feels a bit snug on me, it was still challenging to get rid of by donating it to someone else. And that’s okay, because than it means that someone else can find just as much joy as I did. And that is what makes this journey so joyous, because you’re getting rid of things so someone can enjoy these things, too. When you own less things that’s whenyou can truly appreciate what you have.

Tea

I had a cup of tea with a friend of mine whom I haven’t seen in awhile. It was really nice to see him again.

I learnt a lot about myself and I am grateful for that experience.

Today, I will spend time with a loved one to experience the feelings of love and re-energize my soul.