Fuel Your Passion

Don’t let your fears hold you back from your true desires. You are born to do great things. Keep on fueling your fire of greatness. Never let someone put out your fire, or even yourself for that matter. Everyone can achieve their goals, if they keep on working towards them, and never give up.

Keep on moving forward, even if it is small baby steps. Any forward progress is still progress.

One Year Later…

A year ago, today, I was hit by a car walking to work. I haven’t even told many people in my family, I guess I just didn’t want them to worry about me. Not many of my family follows my blog, at least not yet anyway. I was extremely thankful and lucky that I didn’t die, or suffer any life threatening injuries from my accident. I only suffered bruises and a bit of swelling. Not even a broken bone. I think my Guardian Angel was my Great Aunt. I like to think that she was watching over me protecting me that day. I remember the last time, I had visited her, she called me her girl, and hugged me. I knew that I always held a special place in her heart.

If you would like to read the original story of my accident, although it may be a bit graphic for some readers. I tried my best not to be too graphic. You can read the original story here, https://threeyellowdaisies.ca/2020/05/29/second-chance/ The purpose of this post is to provide hope and wisdom to other people, and not so much of the story of the accident.

Now I spend my days trying to cram doing all the things that make me happy throughout my days, because we truly don’t know when our last day may be. I was able to start writing my blog again, five months after my accident. I first started this blog in May of 2015, and managed to write it for a year, and took a break, and nearly forgotten about it for four years. But here I am, back and better than ever. And here to stay.

I know that they are many people who lose their lives due to motor vehicle accidents every year. In Canada there were 1,922 people who died in 2018 from a motor vehicle traffic collision. (1) I am truly sorry for everyone who has lost a loved one from a car accident. My heart goes out to you all.

A year ago today, I am reminded that any one of us can die so suddenly, so let’s not waste a day, or even a second for holding a grudge, or hatred towards someone. Why waste a day, being anything, but happy? We should make every one of our days count for something. We should add joy and happiness in someone else’s day. The best part is that doesn’t take a lot of effort. When we make other people happy, it also makes us happy, too. It’s a win win situation. And sometimes people don’t get so lucky with having a second chance at life. So find something that makes you happy, and brings joy to your life. Life truly does go by pretty fast, faster than we think.

I hope everyone can use this tragedy as a reminder to go out and find your passion. Really start living your life. You don’t know what the future is going to bring you, so don’t let it pass you by.

A year later, I still feel pain from time to time in my right thigh where I got hit. I still get a bit anxious going out for a walk, especially at busy interactions, and busy roads. I have always been cautious crossing the street before my accident. And now, I’m even more cautious, if that’s even possible. I avoided having to do any obligations and errands for today, so I don’t have to go outside. It must sound a bit lame, but I just don’t have the strength to go out on the anniversary of my accident.

Getting hit by a car, really changed my life for the better. It gave me motivation to take over my life, again. I learned that I was too focused of living my life to other people’s standards, and not so much as to my standards. I was doing something that people wanted me to do. I even started studying accounting a few years ago, since people told me that I should be an accountant, because I was organized, had a good memory, and good with numbers. I learned that maybe, that’s what I’m not meant to do. And now I am slowly doing the things I want to do for myself. I found my true passions. In the fifth grade I wanted to be a writer, and right now I have been dedicating time to write. I want to add joy to people’s lives, by helping them see the good in themselves, and helping them realize that things do get better.

Throughout the year, other areas of my life have changed, my boyfriend and I no longer live with his family, but now we live with his friend and his family. I no longer work at that coffee shop. Not for reasons related to the accident. That’s just how life worked out for us. I couldn’t be more happy. I was working for someone else’s dreams, and not really have a lot of time to focus on my dreams, and what my passions are. Right now, I have been focusing on my blog, and writing some stories. That is what I am passionate about.

I see this day as a reminder to live my life, chase after my dreams, not try to appease what people want me to do, or they say to me when I’ve just been writing some ideas down. Even though the accident didn’t make much sense, like I always asked myself, why did that happen to me? Why did I lived? I really started questioning my purpose. I’m not working at the moment, but I have been using this time to work on what I am passionate about, which is writing. How thankful I am that I only ended up with bruises. Because I know, not everyone is as lucky. I am thankful that I still get to help others, and that I get to be here for my loved ones. The universe saw something greater in me, than I was capable of seeing in myself, and the universe didn’t want my story to end. This accident ignited a fire in me, that I should do something in my life. It reminds me to always find my purpose and happiness, and go in that direction, and not move backwards.

I hope that people can take away that their life doesn’t last forever, only their legacy does. It’s best not to waste your purpose by living someone else’s dreams. Go and chase your passion. Life is limited, so go out there and make something out of your life.

  1. https://tc.canada.ca/en/road-transportation/motor-vehicle-safety/canadian-motor-vehicle-traffic-collision-statistics-2018

26 Facts About Me

In honour of my 26th birthday, I am willing to share 26 facts about me.

  1. My favourite hobbies reading, blogging and cooking.
  2. I have a lot of wisdom and share it with others.
  3. I have a bad habit of buying new books before I finish the ones I have previously bought.
  4. I am quotes obsessed. I love reading quotes and passing them on to my loved ones when they are having a bad day.
  5. I have moved five times.
  6. I have had two surgeries.
  7. When I was younger I wanted to be a nurse.
  8. My absolute favourite TV show is Grey’s Anatomy.
  9. My favourite non-alcoholic drink is tea (roobios tea and matcha are favourites).
  10. My favourite alcoholic drink is a bottle (or two) of white wine, but I also like red.
  11. I am known to have a big heart and I am a caring person.
  12. I took the Myers and Brigg Personality Quiz and my personality type is INFJ-T Turbulent Advocate. This means I know how to reach my goals and I make an impact.
  13. I can speak French (not at an immediate level, yet, still practicing). English is my primary language.
  14. Some activities on my bucket list include visiting the Seven Wonders of the World, buy a house, save up a lot of money and find a career I am passionate about.
  15. Places I want to travel to Eastern Canada (Nova Scotia, New Brunswick, P.E.I.), Bali, Italy, Ireland and the Giraffe Manor in Kenya, Africia since I love giraffes. These are just a few places I would like to travel to. Personally if I could I love to see the whole world if I could.
  16. I am known to give people amazing and creative gifts. For my sister’s first mother’s day I developed all of the photos I had of my niece as well as the ones my sister had shared with me and decorated the binder. And a framed photo of her holding her baby.
  17. I’ve never been on a rollercoaster. I’m more of a Ferris wheel kind of gal.
  18. My dream house would like three bedrooms, one for an actual bedroom, one for my office so I can blog and do my future homework when I go back to school, and one for my exercise room for yoga and meditation. I would like to have an open style kitchen, with white cupboards and an island, with bar stools around it and a formal dining room. I would also like to have a balcony from my bedroom and a wrap around porch out front. For my backyard I would like to have a deck and a nice garden filled with plants, flowers, fruits and veggies. I always wanted to have a garden but I never knew how to get started.
  19. I am really intuitive. Every time that my inner voice tells me something, it’s usually always right.
  20. I have never driven a car before.
  21. If I had a time machine I would change my spending habits so I could have started saving money sooner than I have.
  22. I’ve been stung by a bee twice.
  23. I believe in having a vision board.
  24. In grade 11 I memorized the order of the U.S. Presidents.
  25. I have a sweet tooth. I love chocolate and ice cream and cherry cheesecake. My favourite ice cream flavour is cotton candy and my favourite chocolate bar is Kit Kat.
  26. My favourite meal is steak and fries or mashed potatoes with gravy.

What If?

As I was rereading all of my blog posts, I really liked Eckhart Tolle Fridays. So I am going to be doing this every Friday again.

To be honest, I have to pick up The Power of Now again. I know this time for real, I will finish it. It’s a really moving book at times. I get lost pondering what he has said. I also really want to finish it this book because a friend suggested it to me and I have his second book.

“Are you worried? Do yo have many ‘what if?’ thoughts? You are identified with your mind, which is projecting itself into an imaginary future situation and creating fear. There is no way that you can cope with such a situation, because it doesn’t exist. It’s a mental phantom. You can stop this health and life-corroding insanity simply by acknowledging the present moment. Become aware of your body. Feel your inner energy field. All that you ever have to deal with, cope with, in real life — as opposed to imaginary mind projections — is this moment. Ask yourself what ‘problem’ you have right now, not next year, tomorrow, or five minutes from now. What is wrong with this moment? You can always cope with the Now, but you can never cope with the future —- nor do you have to. The answer, the strength, the right action or the resource will be there when you need it, not before, not after.”

-Eckhart Tolle

I love this quote because it reminds us that we shouldn’t be anxious our future and that we don’t have to look at our past with shame. But he is encouraging us to stay in the present, because that’s all that we have.

Second Chance

*Warning* This blog post may be graphic for some readers.

About six months ago, my boyfriend was walking me to work. During that time it was our winter, so I had slipped and fallen on some ice on my right thigh. It hurt a bit, but I shook it off as I had ways to go. That whole morning, even getting ready for work felt like an off day for me. I wasn’t in the best mood. To be honest, I was feeling a bit discouraged that day.

We were almost at my work, when the light had turned green – our right away. And because I was angry that day, I was walking fast, faster than my boyfriend, and the next thing I knew I was lying on the ground. I had just gotten hit by a car that was turning left and he ran right into me. I was too busy thinking in my head to hear the car turning. My boyfriend tried his best to grab me and pull me out of the way. He felt me slip out of his arms.

I was crying, but I was strong enough to stand up afterwards. My mind has never let me remember the actual feeling of getting hit by the car. Which I am so thankful for. It really was scary. I just remember the feeling pain on my face and on my right thigh, (it didn’t help that I had previously fallen on it, 20 minutes prior) which is what had hit the car. I also remember being scared to touch my face and thigh in fears of feeling broken bones. After I had placed my hands over those body parts, I just felt the skin being swollen, nothing was broken, although I don’t have a Medical Degree, so I couldn’t be 100% certain.

My boyfriend took me over to a side walk where he took his coat off and used that as a cushion for me to sit down on. Then a familiar customer approached me asking me if I was okay, because I assumed not a lot of time has passed by, so she must have saw the accident. She was nice enough to call for help on my behalf. I told her that I worked at the coffee shop just up the street, where she was heading. She had spoke to the manager explaining the situation to my manager. My manager came out and saw me and gave me a hug.

I just remembered looking at the car and seeing his side mirror hanging off over his door handle.

Not much time after that, help showed up. My boyfriend and I both gave the police our statements. We then went to a hospital to get looked at to make sure that I was okay. After a doctor had examined me, she told me that I was lucky. Nothing was broken, just bruises and a bit of swelling.

It was in those moments that I truly was lucky. I could have suffered life-threatening injuries, or worst, I could have died, but the universe told me that my purpose and story wasn’t over. The universe knew that I had more to offer and bring into this world. It made me feel that I was needed and people needed me too.

I was also reminded me that I should be chasing my own dreams and passions and not be persuaded by what others want me to be. I pursued accounting thinking that I would love it, and be good at it. And also because people were encouraging telling me that I would be good at it, as well. But when I was studying it, I felt like my heart wasn’t it.

When they placed my hospital bracelet, I remembered the other times that I had to wear one in the past. Being in the hospital, made me feel like a patient in Grey’s Anatomy. It reminded when I was younger, I always wanted to be a nurse. I love helping people, I’m an optimistic and a caring person who has a lot of patience. To me, those are good qualities to have as a nurse. I know there are many other qualities to be a nurse, but those are the first ones that come to mind.

Later that night, because I had fallen and broke the concrete with my face. I ended up chipping one of my tooth, that I previously chipped two years ago, almost to the day. It was just not my day that day. I noticed because I was eating my dinner and a part of my filling came off. But I am thankful for all of the lessons it has taught me.

Although, to be honest I laid in bed for the next week or so. It wasn’t so much the aftermath of getting hit by the car that knocked me out, it was mostly the anxiety of having to go back outside. I also had a purple, dark blue bruise on my face, so that made me feel a bit self conscious. It was a very scary time for me. Fortunately, the bruise was a pale yellow greenish bruise by the time I returned to work a week later. It reminded that everything is only temporary, this pain won’t last forever.

I just felt a lot of life changing moments during the whole incident. I felt like beforehand, I wasn’t in the best place, emotionally; I often felt like I wasn’t me. I felt like I had outgrew a lot of things, like I was hungry and wanting new and better things for myself. I wanted a new job, a new place to live. The whole incident taught me to not settle for things that made me unhappy, instead choose happiness.

It made me realize that I am stronger than I even realized. I am capable of making changes in my life. This incident made me count my blessings, and to always be thankful no matter what happens to me. It was like this whole thing was a teaching moment. It reinforced everything that I preach in my blog, to be thankful, to never settle, to always believe in yourself and to overcome your anxieties and fears. I can really go and do anything I want to in my life.

It was also a reminder to always live your life like it is your last day. I know that made sound like a cliche, but it’s so true. You should always fill your days doing something you love. Always tell your friends and family how much they mean to you. No one knows when their time is going to run out. Don’t let the bad times bring you down, you can always stand up, no matter how hard the universe may bring you down. Use your troubles as stepping stones for something better. Learn to count your blessings, not your burdens.

Doing Things That Matter

I realized that these posts are written really late – in fact it is in the middle of the night because I was planning on writing my posts whilst my boyfriend brushes my hair but he fell asleep before my hair got brushed. So now it’s still in this messy bun all tangled.

I quietly got out of bed to write these posts. He didn’t notice because he can sleep through anything.

So earlier I was in my boyfriend’s room and his sister was going downstairs and then all you hear is her screaming. Then I came over and I start screaming. She found a lizard on one of the steps.

My boyfriend found this lizard and he was going to drop it off at a pet store but the lizard escaped from the box and he wasn’t able to find it until his sister nearly steps on the poor thing. I named her Liz and I’m not even sure if the lizard is male or female.

Me: OMG! My boyfriend didn’t take this to the pet store!!

She told me that she probably stepped on it before she realized it was a lizard she mistaken it for a leaf.

So we had to think of something quick because we had to depart soon to meet up with her mama. We had to scoop it up somehow so we used a cloth to place him back into this box that my boyfriend threw him in. The box already had air holes. Their brother somewhat lacked concern for our safety. After his sister explained what was happening, he suggested to her that I just sit around watching this lizard. As if my time isn’t valuable.

Then I go to use the bathroom and my boyfriend’s brother’s lizard is in the way so I screamed! Their brother became annoyed because we were screaming. I was startled. He had to grab his lizard and told us; “Why do you guys have to be so extra?”

I messaged my boyfriend; “Thanks for going to the pet store!! -.-”

Later on throughout the day I came back into my boyfriend’s brother’s room and he told me to be careful because his lizard was running around. So as soon as I soon the lizard I started screaming and then his sister from afar started screaming too. He wasn’t impressed.

Then my boyfriend came home and I told him the story and he told me that he started laughing when he read my message. Which I didn’t find funny by the way. I tell him that he told EVERYONE in the house but me. He told his mama, his sister and his brother. He told me that he wanted to find it himself which didn’t happen.

So then later his brother told me to sit down because he wanted me to not to be afraid of lizards anymore. He placed his lizard on my lap. It was… different.

Then later on in the day, his brother wanted to play his game so he kicked us out of our room and he didn’t tell us that we would sleep here in his room since it was only supposed to be two hours top.

I just feel so unprepared. We didn’t colour before going to bed. I wanted to fall asleep differently. I wanted to smell the autumn crisp evening air. A lot of my things are still in the room because it was never supposed to be an overnight thing. It feels weird.

This feels strange for some reason. And now I can’t fall back to sleep but at least I brought my pencil crayons and colouring book. Laugh at me now but colouring has many benefits. Although I can’t use any lightening since I don’t want to startle my boyfriend despite that his lizard startled me. So now I have to settle using this computer screen as my light.

Today, I will not the unknown scare me. Instead I would use them as stepping stones to overcome my fears. I will not let the feelings of being unprepared bring me down.

Facing Your Fears

On the eve of my 21st birthday I made a list of resolutions that I pledged to keep and do throughout my 21st year.

One of them was to face a fear. Last night I went to a festival with my boyfriend, sister, and her boyfriend and our friend. My boyfriend and I went on a Ferris Wheel. I don’t know if you knew this but I’m afraid of heights. It’s something that I’m working on. We took a lot of pictures of us.

It was a little scary but since I was with my boyfriend I knew I was in good hands. 🙂 ❤

Today, I will do something that scares me.