Courage

I hope everyone is having a good week, my week could definitely be a bit better.

I didn’t draw this, but I came across this photo on Facebook. I love Oprah Winfrey and quotes.

But with this whole pandemic going on, I have been doing some soul searching and wanting to try new things. One of my dreams is to write a book, and become a published author. I have been working hard on brainstorming ideas, and manifesting my dream to the universe.

I believe that everyone has a goal inside of them. All you need is to dig deep within yourself, and let the universe know what you would like for yourself.

One Year Later…

A year ago, today, I was hit by a car walking to work. I haven’t even told many people in my family, I guess I just didn’t want them to worry about me. Not many of my family follows my blog, at least not yet anyway. I was extremely thankful and lucky that I didn’t die, or suffer any life threatening injuries from my accident. I only suffered bruises and a bit of swelling. Not even a broken bone. I think my Guardian Angel was my Great Aunt. I like to think that she was watching over me protecting me that day. I remember the last time, I had visited her, she called me her girl, and hugged me. I knew that I always held a special place in her heart.

If you would like to read the original story of my accident, although it may be a bit graphic for some readers. I tried my best not to be too graphic. You can read the original story here, https://threeyellowdaisies.ca/2020/05/29/second-chance/ The purpose of this post is to provide hope and wisdom to other people, and not so much of the story of the accident.

Now I spend my days trying to cram doing all the things that make me happy throughout my days, because we truly don’t know when our last day may be. I was able to start writing my blog again, five months after my accident. I first started this blog in May of 2015, and managed to write it for a year, and took a break, and nearly forgotten about it for four years. But here I am, back and better than ever. And here to stay.

I know that they are many people who lose their lives due to motor vehicle accidents every year. In Canada there were 1,922 people who died in 2018 from a motor vehicle traffic collision. (1) I am truly sorry for everyone who has lost a loved one from a car accident. My heart goes out to you all.

A year ago today, I am reminded that any one of us can die so suddenly, so let’s not waste a day, or even a second for holding a grudge, or hatred towards someone. Why waste a day, being anything, but happy? We should make every one of our days count for something. We should add joy and happiness in someone else’s day. The best part is that doesn’t take a lot of effort. When we make other people happy, it also makes us happy, too. It’s a win win situation. And sometimes people don’t get so lucky with having a second chance at life. So find something that makes you happy, and brings joy to your life. Life truly does go by pretty fast, faster than we think.

I hope everyone can use this tragedy as a reminder to go out and find your passion. Really start living your life. You don’t know what the future is going to bring you, so don’t let it pass you by.

A year later, I still feel pain from time to time in my right thigh where I got hit. I still get a bit anxious going out for a walk, especially at busy interactions, and busy roads. I have always been cautious crossing the street before my accident. And now, I’m even more cautious, if that’s even possible. I avoided having to do any obligations and errands for today, so I don’t have to go outside. It must sound a bit lame, but I just don’t have the strength to go out on the anniversary of my accident.

Getting hit by a car, really changed my life for the better. It gave me motivation to take over my life, again. I learned that I was too focused of living my life to other people’s standards, and not so much as to my standards. I was doing something that people wanted me to do. I even started studying accounting a few years ago, since people told me that I should be an accountant, because I was organized, had a good memory, and good with numbers. I learned that maybe, that’s what I’m not meant to do. And now I am slowly doing the things I want to do for myself. I found my true passions. In the fifth grade I wanted to be a writer, and right now I have been dedicating time to write. I want to add joy to people’s lives, by helping them see the good in themselves, and helping them realize that things do get better.

Throughout the year, other areas of my life have changed, my boyfriend and I no longer live with his family, but now we live with his friend and his family. I no longer work at that coffee shop. Not for reasons related to the accident. That’s just how life worked out for us. I couldn’t be more happy. I was working for someone else’s dreams, and not really have a lot of time to focus on my dreams, and what my passions are. Right now, I have been focusing on my blog, and writing some stories. That is what I am passionate about.

I see this day as a reminder to live my life, chase after my dreams, not try to appease what people want me to do, or they say to me when I’ve just been writing some ideas down. Even though the accident didn’t make much sense, like I always asked myself, why did that happen to me? Why did I lived? I really started questioning my purpose. I’m not working at the moment, but I have been using this time to work on what I am passionate about, which is writing. How thankful I am that I only ended up with bruises. Because I know, not everyone is as lucky. I am thankful that I still get to help others, and that I get to be here for my loved ones. The universe saw something greater in me, than I was capable of seeing in myself, and the universe didn’t want my story to end. This accident ignited a fire in me, that I should do something in my life. It reminds me to always find my purpose and happiness, and go in that direction, and not move backwards.

I hope that people can take away that their life doesn’t last forever, only their legacy does. It’s best not to waste your purpose by living someone else’s dreams. Go and chase your passion. Life is limited, so go out there and make something out of your life.

  1. https://tc.canada.ca/en/road-transportation/motor-vehicle-safety/canadian-motor-vehicle-traffic-collision-statistics-2018

Courage

“Courage is being scared to death but saddling up anyway.”

-John Wayne

This is a great quote. I love it and it’s really inspiring. I am going to try my best and work hard.

Keep Moving

I managed to get a lot done in a day. I made myself breakfast, lunch and dinner, did a load of laundry, washed dishes, declutter my clothes in my closet. I was quiet proud of my accomplishments.

Today, I will try my best to accomplish all that I want to do and I will not give up until all is done.

Never Give Up

Today I learnt the importance of never giving up on your dreams.

If you must keep at it and never give up.

Today, I will not let my dreams die. I will remind myself; “Don’t wish for it. Work for it!” Never give up.

Realization

Today whilst I was reading my Al-Anon book I became inspired.

“Here’s an eye-opening, mind-opening question to ask myself: What am I doing with what I’ve got? Instead of crying over what I don’t have and wishing my life were different, what I am I doing with what I’ve got?

This made me think that I am not everything I can be and that I am not using everything that I have. From this moment on I will use everything that I have to ensure that I am living to my fullest potential.

Let It All Go

“Let it all go from the get go
let go, let God let it go
leave it alone, let it pass
let it be,c’est la vie, whats done is done
hang up on it
land the plane, don’t get on that train
the bus has already left
this too, shall pass

shake it off, cut your losses
bust loose, break free,
its water under the bridge
what comes around, goes around
go around, get over it, get it together
get a grip, get moving, keep moving
move on, move forward, forward march
stop, drop it, squash it, release
relax.

spilled water cannot be poured back.
don’t look back. enough is enough. quit dwelling.
forget it, forgive it, right now, as is.
nothing is against us.

our craving for annihilation will be laid to rest,
with the apocalyptic resentment and the compounding stress.
yes, said the answer.
yes, said the breath.
the consequences are immediate.
so when you breathe,
you might try freeing both lungs up.”

-Buddy Wakefield, Free Air

I absolutely love this. It reminds me to let it all go. Never attach yourself to your past. Embrace the now. “Nothing is against us.” Just breathe. It motivates me to stay mindful and in the moment.

Never Let Someone Treat You Like Garbage

If someone treats you like garbage do NOT accept that. You know that you are worthy to not be treated that way.

If someone treats you with disrespect, don’t stoop to their level; use your words. I know this can be difficult it was difficult for me to do this today. I couldn’t help myself not to be a little sassy. But I wanted to make sure that this person shouldn’t treat me like that. But I will try my best to tone my sassyness.

I dislike when people think that they can do that, when they have no right to.

Today, I will treat others the way I want to be treated.

Planning For The Future

Today I am planning for the future. I am finally deciding as to what is worth pursuing. I could not be more happy.

This is where the beginning begins for me. For the past I have been indecisive about what I want to do but now I am 100% certain.

I know that it’s best to stay present but at the time it is still necessary to prepare for my future.

I am ready for my future to start.

Today, part of staying mindful is staying in the now but it is okay to look in the future.