Day 77

This is from Thursday March 18th.

Within the week of my Papa’s passing, we had a funeral for him. It was a lovely and beautiful service. I miss him and love him so much. I just wished we had more memories towards the end. Only because the final year of his life was spent in lockdown, so we couldn’t visit him. I feel like if I was able to see him during his final year, I wouldn’t feel so sad.

Something that my Papa always lived by, was to devote your time into your passions. Find what you are passionate about and spend your time working on them. It really encourage me to devote my time to spend time brainstorming and writing down some book ideas. My lifelong dream is to be a published author. I would love to be my own boss, and just write books. I have been planning on getting all caught up with the things I am behind in, like reading my library books, my blog, and just rearranging things in my room.

It is important to spend a bit of time every day to work on your goals and passions. Even if it’s just five minutes, it will be five minutes more than what you would have spent on your dreams if you didn’t.

Today, I will discover what my passions, and what I would like to accomplish in the upcoming weeks, months, or even years, depending on what your goal is. Once I have decided on what I want to achieve in my life, I would devote a little bit of time every day to achieve all that I would like to achieve.

Just Checking In

Hi everyone!

For the sake of my Happiness Project, I ended up changing the date of my publication date on my previous blog posts. That way all of March Happiness Project’s resolutions and goals can be found in March, and not scattered through March, April and May. Thank you again for your patience and understanding.

I apologize for being so busy these past two months. I’m not sure if you have heard, but my Grandpa passed away two months ago. It has been the most challenging, and heartbreaking past few weeks. I feel like I’ve been going through a lot. He was the closest person I have ever lost. He was my best friend.

I have been trying to get all caught up with everything on here. But at the same time it feels like everyone wants my attention, and needs my help. I know I should put myself first, and my desires first. But at the same time, I always struggle to say no. But I do all of these things for my niece’s sake, and her benefit.

There are days where my sister and her boyfriend need me to watch my niece. And some days, I feel like drained by my other obligations, but I say yes, so I can see my niece, and spend time with her.

I am slowly starting to work towards things I want to do for myself, and things that would make me happy. I guess I just feel drained because there is so many things I want to do, and work towards, but I have falling a bit behind. I am now finding down time to get things done.

I made a list of some of the things that I need and want to get done. This has been so helpful, because I don’t have to get a mental note out of everything that I would like to get done. And now that I have a better visual of what needs to get done. I can see how to spend my time more wisely. This will help me stay motivated and on track of achieving everything I set out for myself.

I can’t wait to get all caught up again. I appreciate the love and support from everyone. Please continue to send me positive messages, and support. My goal is get caught up with things by June, if I can. I am determined to work through a lot on my To-Do List. I can’t wait to hear from all of you again. ❤

Catching Up

Hi everyone!

I feel bad, because I have been so busy with everything. Just over a month ago, my Grandpa passed away, and that was a lot to deal with. So I took a bit of time to myself, and to grieve over his loss. There isn’t a day that doesn’t go by, that I don’t think about him.

So I am slowly, but surely catching up with everything. I appreciate all of your love, and support during this time. Thank you so much!

I hope everyone is doing well.

Thankful Thursdays #37 – March 11th, 2021

This was an emotional week for me. It basically broke me. But I was able to see the silver lining in it. I hope that everyone is doing well, and that whatever everyone may be going through that they can see the silver lining, too.

Feel free to write what you are thankful for in a journal, or some electronic document. Or you can talk about it among your trusted circle, or just spend some time reflecting it upon yourself.

Here is my list…

  1. I am very thankful that I got to “see” (I use quotation marks, because it wasn’t in person, like we normally do) him in the hospital.
  2. I am happy that my sister invited me over so I was able to see him.
  3. As much as it hurts, my Grandpa being in the hospital brought our family closer together.
  4. I am grateful that I have a supportive boyfriend to help me go through this difficult time.
  5. I appreciate my followers for being so patient and supportive during these days.

Thank you for all of your kind words. It means the world to me.

Heart Broken

I am so sorry for my absence on my blog. Last week, my Dad had sent me a message, telling me that my Grandpa (his Dad) has died. He has been in the hospital a few days before he had passed away. It was not Covid related.

He had a bad heart, but that never stopped him from loving everyone. Everyone was his best friend. He was my best friend my whole life. I feel really sad that he is no longer on earth with me. But I know that he will be looking down on me.

I have been trying to not let the sadness bring me down. But some days it is harder than others. My Papa has been having a hard year with his heart. And that he was sad that not too many people have been able to visit him. Where I live, in order to protect the elderly members a lot of the retirement homes can no longer have any visitors, and the residents that lived there, weren’t allowed to leave the retirement home. The Grandpa I knew was he was always moving and liked to keep myself busy. So for him not to be able to interact with everyone, was challenging on him.

My Dad had told me that it wasn’t looking too good for him. I was so sad, because I just kept on hoping that he would get better, so he could go back home. Because he was only allowed to be visited by his children, and grandchildren weren’t allowed to see him. We were still fortunate enough to have said our goodbyes via FaceTime with one of my uncles. I haven’t seen him in a year because of the Covid protocols. I was blessed to have visited my Grandparents the weekend before everything closed. During that visit I didn’t want to leave, because I had a feeling that it might have been the last time seeing him. I had a feeling because I knew it was only a matter of time before all of the retirement homes get placed under lockdown.

It’s been a difficult month, with trying to accept the loss of my Grandpa. It’s been challenging to accept that he is gone. The world feels so different without him here on Earth. He was a loving man. I just wished I got to make more memories with him. We missed out on a lot of memories during his final year, birthdays, BBQ’s, Christmas, and many visits. He lived a long, beautiful life. He got to be there for his family, and see his Grandchildren grow up. He even got to meet his Great Grandchildren. Not everyone gets that blessing. He was three months away for his 91st birthday.

Luckily we were able to have a funeral for him to honour the great man that he was. I feel so glad to have had you in my life for as long as I had. I’m almost 27, not too many of my friends have their Grandparents at that age, most of the people I knew from school had to deal with this during elementary days. I can’t even imagine to feel that burden.

Two weeks ago, my best friend, and one of my Gemini twins became my Guardian Angel.

“How lucky am I to have something that makes saying goodbye to so hard?”-A.A. Minnie, Winnie the Pooh

I feel so fortunate that we were able to have so many years together, filled with so many wonderful memories. You were the best Grandpa anyone could have asked for.

I always get told that I look so much like you, and I love that I can see a resemblance of you in myself.

I thought that sitting on your lap was always the best seat in the house. It made me feel happy and safe being wrapped around your arms. We would tell each other stories, and we would make each other laugh all the time.

I remember that time you bought all of my back to school supplies, as well as my sister’s supplies, too. I was going to start grade one, and my sister was going to start the fourth grade. I wanted to have all of the fancy supplies that my sister was getting, like all of those cool binders, rulers, calculators, highlighters, pencil crayons, and so many other supplies that I did not need for the first grade. But I wanted to be just like my sister! But having all of these supplies made me want to do well in school. You inspired me to reach my goals. And I am still making sure that I reach my goals now.

I remember whenever I got sick, you would babysit me while my parents were at work. And other times, you would drive yourself and Grandma to our place, to drop off homemade soup. Grandma would make the best chicken noodle soup, and turkey soup. She would make us whatever she had on hand at the time. I always felt so blessed.

I remember the one time I was at your cottage, and I had lost my first tooth, since you told me that eating some celery would help it come out. Your idea totally worked! Although after I lost my tooth, I got all worried, because I didn’t think that the Tooth Fairy would be able to find me so far away from home. You had helped me calm down, when you explained that the Tooth Fairy will still be able to find me. She did indeed.

I remember when we were about to head out for the cottage, but Great Auntie (his sister-in-law) had called Grandma. Those two loved to talked to each other. While we waited for their conversation to end, you taught me how to tie my shoes. It made me so happy! I remember getting to tell Grandma all about it once she got off of the phone.

I always remember going to your house a lot of the time, because you and Grandma would have invited us over for roast beef, mashed potatoes (which are my favourite) carrots, and corn. And we would always end the night with us dancing together. You would place my feet on top of yours, and we would hold hands while we swayed across the floor in the foyer. We would always Dance it Out!

I was always at your house so much, it was basically a second home away from home. From the countless sleepovers, to our weekly dinners, I was always visiting you! We also watched Wheel of Fortune, Jeopardy! and whatever sport game was on afterwards, whether it was football, or your favourite the New York Rangers, we always had a fun time.

I remember that one sleepover at your house, during the Easter long weekend. We had our family dinner on the Saturday night, and then I spent the night with my auntie, my uncle, and my two cousins after everyone else had left. The three of us woke up to an Easter Scavenger Hunt for chocolate eggs the next morning. You were helping me the most try to find the eggs! And all of those other weekend sleepovers at my auntie and uncle’s house. Especially since they lived so far away from us, so the road trips were also fun, too! Those were the best.

We also had so many sleepovers with my sister, which were always so much fun. Especially when it was during the winter time, you would drive us around the neighbourhood and look at all of the Christmas lights.

I loved how I was fortunate enough to celebrate our birthdays together since our birthdays were ten days apart. It was always a wonderful celebration. Our names were both written on the cake for a lot of our birthdays. That always made me smile.

Another dear memory of mine that I have of you, is that when I was in the hospital in the fifth grade, you and Grandma came to the hospital and visited me every day! I am always thankful for your company. And most days you came over with presents, to help me feel more comfortable.

Because of all of the cups of tea we have shared together, I have become obsessed with tea. And now I will always think of you whenever I have a cup of tea. You always made the best cup of tea ever! You showed me a love for puzzles like Sudoku, and word searches, bowling, and dressing up.

I will always remember you by looking so dapper. You always had your hair combed really nicely. You even kept a comb in your back pocket. You would even wear a suit and a jacket, despite us just having brunch together at a restaurant. I remember all of my uncles telling you that you didn’t have to wear a suit for a brunch. You would reply with that you wanted to. The only time I really saw you dress casually was when I saw you on Fridays for our weekly dinners, and whenever we went to the beach

Of course, I can go on and on with even more of the memories we have shared together, because you truly have given me a lifetime of memories, that I will cherish forever.

You passed down so much of your wisdom, and compassion onto me. You have taught me valuable lessons throughout my life. You showed me the importance of helping out others, and being kind to others. You taught me what it means to truly love someone, and how to be family-oriented.

Thank you for telling me all of these stories about my great aunties, and uncles, and great grandparents, and the stories about you and Grandma, and how you two met. I have always admired your love story with Grandma, it’s like a fairy tale. They were married for 68 years, and have been together for almost 71 years. Growing up I had wished that I would have an amazing love story like you two. And lucky for me, I met my Prince Charming on the day of your wedding anniversary. I took that as a sign from the universe!

Growing up you were always the first person I told good news to. You always believed in me. You have helped shape me into who I am as a person. You have inspired me, and strengthened me over the years.

Thank you for all that you have done for me, and for our family. You taught me that it is important to make compromises for our family. I am grateful that you took us to see my Great Auntie. We always played cards, and other games with my Great Auntie. She always would make us her delicious fudge. We visited her a lot with my Grandparents because she was lonely since her husband passed away not too long ago. She was always such a nice lady. She’s another Gemini that I hold dear to my heart!

I am going to miss you so much. But I know that as long as I keep you in my heart, you are never really gone. You will forever be a part of us. I know that I can be sad all I want to be, but I can also be happy for you that you can see all of your siblings, and all of the other amazing people that have passed on before you. Please tell Great Auntie, that I say hello, and that I miss her, too. I hope you are enjoying her homemade fudge and Shortbread cookies. I also hope that you are playing Jeopardy! with Alex Trebek.

I had a 30 second dance party on the night you had passed because that is how we finish! I love you more than words would be able to explain my love for you. Please continue to send me your support, and your love for me. And be sure to send me any pieces of advice and guidance whenever you may think I need any. You will be missed dearly. I love you with all of my heart. Until we meet again… xoxo

Since you always inspired me to chase after my dreams, and I will be honouring you by writing a book about you, and all of the memories we have shared. I will keep everyone posted with the writing. I will love to start getting back into writing again. Writing has always made me so happy.

I feel like this is what you have been sending me, that you would want me to continue to live my life, and to reach my goals. You would want me to be happy, and to remember all of the times we have shared.

Thank you for everything that you have ever done for me. It means so much!

For my followers, thank you so much for your love and patience during this time. I appreciate all of the likes and support that you have been giving me. It truly means the world to me.

Day 53

Hey everyone, I just had a crazy, but eventful week. I hope that everyone is doing well. So this is actually my life lesson from last Monday. I learned so much this week, and I more than happy to share that with everyone. I am looking forward to catching up with everyone, especially getting to know my new followers. Thank you for the support and love. It means so much to me.

What I learned last Monday, is to learn to rest, not quit. I began getting into a yoga schedule, finally. I have been practicing yoga, on and off for a little while now, but I just haven’t been able to find a schedule to do it more regularly, until last week. There are times that my yoga routine can get tiring, and sometimes it can be challenging as well. But what is important for me, was that I learned to take a rest, instead of quitting something that challenged me. I just have to keep on pacing myself. It’s best not to quit something that has positive benefits on the mind and body. This philosophy can be applied to anything, not just to yoga practices. It’s important and necessary that you pace yourself to work towards your goals.

Today, I will understand that it is necessary to never give up on working towards my goals. I will figure out a way to incorporate taking rests and breaks, instead of giving up on whatever I am working on. When you accomplish your goals, you will be so happy that you learn that taking breaks were necessary, and that you didn’t quit your goal because your goal became tiring.

Welcome Back

Hey everyone!

I had such a busy week, between watching the football game, babysitting my niece, and doing my chores around the house. I am back! I appreciate all of the love, and support. Thank you!

Busyness

Hey everyone!

I am so sorry for being a bit M.I.A. these past few days. I have been helping my sister, and my mom with some things. The days seemed to go by a lot faster than they usually do. Here am I trying to catch up with everything. I will definitely make more time to stay on top of my blog.

I hope everyone is doing well, and I can’t wait to get back in touch with everyone. I would love to know what everyone has been up to these past few days. Let me know in the comments.

Thank you for the continued support and love throughout my blog journey. I love it.

Daily Affirmations and Life Lessons Introduction

Hey, everyone! I woke up with this inspiration that I should write about daily affirmations and or life lessons that I have learned throughout my life. I figured that will help other people with whatever they may be going through.

Back when I first began my blog, that was one of my ideas of writing about things that I have learned that day, whether it be something I had learned from work, or just having time to myself. I am excited to do this again.

I first began my blog six years ago in May. All of my coworkers saw that I was always positive, and happy a lot. I had always had something positive to say, and I gave good advice whenever they needed it. I am very proud of myself for starting this blog. Back then I thought I was popular with getting one hundred views in a month, and now that is how many in a day. I had no idea the power my words and ideas I have on others. I am so proud of myself for all of the work that I have been into this blog.

It’s almost like if someone told me how popular my blog would have been when I first started, I don’t think I would have believed it.

Back then I blogged for a year straight, and then I unintentionally took four years off. I was just thinking about my blog just before my birthday (last year), although I had some trouble with remembering my passwords, so it took me a few days to get everything situated. I am so happy I did.

My goal is to be a low key famous blogger, who writes books about all sorts of ideas and genres.

I love being able to help others, and provide others with advice. So being able to write out daily affirmations, and talk about the things I have learned with others, I think that will be extremely helpful.

Feel free to add any insight in the comments if you would like to add more to the ideas. I would love to hear from you.

After such a difficult year, we need more positive vibes to motivate and cheer us on. I like to think that our words have the power to heal to others, and that we shouldn’t be saying anything bad to others. We have the power to make people feel better about themselves. Always remember that.

July Wrap Up

I cannot believe how fast July has came and went. I am thankful for all of the things that I have learned throughout this month. I have learnt to always believe in myself, save money, and being comfortable with having less things.

I have recently quit my full time job to pursue a career in blogging. That was a huge leap of faith for me. I have never quit a job without having a steady job lined up. At the same time I felt like it was best for me to move on. I was at my last time on and off for the past three and half years now. I am so happy to no longer be there anymore. I feel like I was made to be my own boss.

I have working on a budget so we can save more money. I have a long list of goals. My boyfriend and I have been working on a budget together. It has been a lot of fun planning and discussing on ways to save more money.

In case you are new to my blog, I have been starting this new journey about decluttering and going through my things so I only have belongings that truly make me happy. I have been purging my things on and off for the past six years or so. This has been a fun journey, and I have been comfortable living and owning less things.

I am quite happy with all of the things I have learned and I can’t wait for all of the new adventures that August will bring me.