Day 72

As sad as we may be when a loved one passes away, we should remind ourselves that our loss is another person’s reunion. Meaning that we have lost someone incredible, but that person is now reunited with all of the amazing people that has passed on before them.

My Grandpa was the youngest out of his siblings, so he saw all of his family pass on before him. So now he can be reunited with all of his siblings, and his friends, too.

I always regret not calling him as often as I should have. But there wasn’t a lot of new things happening in my life, so I didn’t really know what to say most of the time. I really wished I had made the effort to talk to him more. But in the past, I visited him a lot.

Today, I will remember that even though I am sad, I should be thankful that my loved one is in a better place, with all of our loved ones who have passed on before us. I will honour the ones that have passed on by embracing their lives, and legacies. I will let them live on in my heart, and it would be like they never passed away.

Day 71

This lesson is from Friday March 12th.

At this time, my Grandpa was in the hospital. He had a heart condition. Unfortunately because of the covid protocols, my sister and I weren’t allowed to see him in the hospital, but with the help from my uncle, we were able to FaceTime. Throughout the week, he was becoming less and less responsive, since his doctors put on sedatives. My Dad was planning on visiting him on the weekend, but because his health was declining, I had suggested that my Dad to say his goodbyes today, rather than waiting until the weekend. My sister and I were able to FaceTime him, and we were able to chat together, reflecting on all of the good memories.

The key thing is our family is everything. I know that they are people who have strained relationships with either their parents, or siblings, or aunts, or uncles, or whoever else. Try your best to make amends with them, if that’s what you want. I know that might be hard to do, depending on the reason why you aren’t speaking, or have grudges against them. But if something were to happen to you, or this person, would you want to be forgiven? Or would you want to forgive them? Ask yourself those questions. And if you are okay, without seeking forgiveness, than you don’t need to make amends with them.

But if you would rather work on things, and forgive each other, than I suggest that you find a way to forgive one another. I know that things may be difficult to make amends. There are still options, you can mail them a letter, an email, FaceTime them, etc.

Family can leave us when we least expect them to. So we should acknowledge our family members whenever we can. Sometimes family is all we have.

Today, I will try my best to reach to someone in my family. Family may be all that I have, so I should embrace everyone while they are still here. I wouldn’t want to regret and miss out on any visits with them. Or in this case because of the pandemic, we can FaceTime them, or just call them. Or even just mail them a letter if I can.

Day 70

This lesson is from Thursday March 11th.

I got to see my sister when she finished work. It was a bittersweet visit. We had planned to FaceTime my uncle since he was visiting my Grandpa. Because of the whole covid situation, my sister and I weren’t able to see him, so we can only FaceTime with him, to say our goodbyes.

He was alert, but sedated so he didn’t really say much, but that’s okay. My sister and I talked about all of our memories that we have shared with him. And my other cousins got to say goodbye to him via FaceTime, too. We were all there.

My sister and I talked about all of the times we were at the cottage, all of our sleepovers, all of those cups of tea he made us. My cousins and I slept over at our Grandparents’ house and we had a chocolate egg scavenger hunt. That was a lot of fun!

Today, I will reflect on memories that made me laugh and smile. I will try my hardest to keep them dear to my heart. Mostly I will try to keep the memories alive by telling them to others.

Day 69

This lesson is from Wednesday March 10th.

My Grandpa was in the hospital for a few days now. Unfortunately on the Tuesday, his team of doctors and nurses came to the conclusion that the medication wasn’t helping him get better. So unfortunately they had to take him off his medications. My Grandpa became an end of life patient.

Because of the Covid protocols, the hospitals didn’t allow his grandchildren to visit him. But thankfully with the help of technology, I was able to call my uncle, who was allowed to see him. My uncle put his phone on speaker, and I was able to say my goodbye to my Grandpa. The last time I had saw him it was over a year, since his retirement denied visitors to come through. It was a difficult year not being able to see him. I would always visit him.

I am able to relive one of the last memories we had on the phone.

Today, I learn that saying goodbye to someone, especially someone as dear as my Grandpa, it was incredibly hard. I will embrace every time that I see someone, and appreciate our time with them, because we never when the last time may be.

Day 68

This lesson is from Tuesday March 9th.

I was at my sister’s house for the day, watching my niece. With so many people’s birthdays approaching, I thought it would be fun for my niece and myself to make some crafts for everyone! It was my niece’s Grandma’s birthday, then it was my sister’s birthday, and then a family friend’s birthday.

I traced my niece’s hands and made them into various things. For her Grandma, we made each of her hands into flowers. And then for my sister, we made them into elephants. And for our family friend we just traced her hands. And we added a cute quote. Everyone loved her work of art!

During that time my Grandpa was in the hospital, which made me feel really sad. But helping my niece with her presents to everyone, that cheered me up a bit. It was a nice distraction.

Today, I will try to do something that allows me to give back to others, whether it’s through crafts, or giving someone my time, it would help me distract myself from my own feelings of despair. Sometimes b giving something to others, we are able to forget our own feelings for a bit. Maybe by helping others, or just being there, we are able to cheer ourselves up, too.

Day 67

I finally got all caught up with my blog posts! I couldn’t be more happy about that!

I started this week on a grind. I was determined to finish everything (my blog posts, put away the laundry, and my other to-do items). I feel so proud of myself. I feel so proud of all the women in my life, and around the world, too. I was able to do my yoga practices, and my meditation. I did some light cleaning around the house, as well.

Be sure to start your week off on a grind. Remember to work hard. Your goals are on the horizon, and you are so close to achieving them. Keep on going!

Today, I will begin my week with stamina. I will recognize that my goals are on the horizon, and that I am so close to achieve them. I just need to keep on pushing myself forward. I will remind myself of how proud I become when I accomplish anything that I wish to achieve. Learn to leave no stone unturned.

Day 66

This lesson is from Sunday.

I have learned that it is okay to ask for help. I have asked my boyfriend for help and see how him and I can come up with solutions to save up money, in order for us to pay down our debts. I have also asked my dad for some money, since my boyfriend had a few days off because there wasn’t any work available for him. I have learned that it is totally okay to ask for help when you need it. We all need each other’s support every now and again.

Today, I will not express any shame of asking others for help. There is no shame to ask anyone. We need to remember that we have a support system, and that everyone is a part of that, is here and willing to help us.

Day 65

This lesson is from Saturday.

Even when the weekend comes around, you should try you’re best to stick to your routine. I know it’s tempting not to stick to a routine. But it is necessary to help you stick to your routine, that you have for yourself. Mind you, it’s okay if there’s something that pops up, and prevents you from sticking to your routine. Take one day to rest. What I find challenging, is when you skip two days in a row. That’s where I feel like you lose your motivation. It’s harder to regain back, when you skip so many days.

Today, I will try my best to maintain a routine, and keep working towards my goals. Although I know it is challenging to work towards on the weekend. But I know if I start skipping out on too many days, I might not be able to regain my motivation back.

Day 64

On Friday, it felt like my world shattered. It really reminded me that; “Life turns on a dime.” -Stephen King,

“Life turns on a dime. Sometimes towards us, but more often it spins away, flirting and flashing as it goes: so long, honey, it was good while it lasted, wasn’t it?”

-Stephen King, 11/22/63

I received a message from my Dad that my Grandpa (his Dad) was rushed to the hospital since he has the pneumonia. I was crying because I didn’t want anything bad to happen to him. Out of all of my Grandparents, he was the one I was closest with. I couldn’t even imagine what it would be like to live in a world that he doesn’t exist anymore.

I thought back to all of the memories we have shared. And now I just pray and hope that he can get better. Where he lives he isn’t allowed to have any visitors or leave to visit others. So I haven’t seen him in a year, which is obviously the longest I have ever gone without seeing him. So I would call every little while to keep him company. I just would love to talk to him a couple more times.

At the same time, I feel fortunate enough to have had my Grandpa in my life this long. I am almost 27 years old, that makes me feel really lucky.

Today, I will soak in and relish all of the good memories I have. You never know when things in your life can change. Enjoy the goodness in your life. Use them as a reflection for when things go in life. Surround yourself with people who you love, and love you. They are what you need to overcome anything bad. Remember to always live your life to the fullest. Enjoy the company, and enjoy the ride.

Day 63

I know I have told this story before, but I have many new followers since I have told this story. I used to live with my mom, before I moved in with my boyfriend and his family. I didn’t want to bring all of my possessions with me to his house. He already had a lot of people, and things in his house. I left the less important things in my room, with the intention of going back there to grab the rest of my stuff. What made it challenging was, it was a long bus ride in between our places. I never felt comfortable having to carry like four bags, and having it take up extra space on the bus.

And at one point my sister lived with my mom, too. So she had her things there, too. My mom was going to use that room for her friend to stay there for a bit. My sister’s boyfriend drove us to my mom’s house, so we can grab our things. Although because they didn’t really plan a lot of time to go through and sort through everything. We did it the lazy way, and just threw everything into a container, and we would just decide to organize it later. So, that is what we did.

And I got settled into a new place last year with my boyfriend, and his friend, so I was finally ready to deal with my stuff. I am tired of having a lot of things in my life. I thought I had sorted through everything, but when my sister’s boyfriend was cleaning out the basement, he had discovered that I had another container of my things. I sorted through the last container of my things from my old room. I feel quite happy about myself.

It is a freeing experience to part with things that you no longer use anymore. I love knowing that there is someone else out there, who is going to use this way more than me.

Today, I will think twice about adding more possessions into my life, and if these items really add value to my life. Sometimes it’s best to just part ways with it, and give it to someone else. It truly is an liberating feeling of owning less. When you have less items in your life, there is less to worry about. When you have less to worry about, you can truly work on the things that add value and happiness in your life.